Broken

We’re all broken and every single person on this earth has a story. Sometimes the hardest part about life is letting God write your story. We try so hard to write our own stories and for some of us, we die STILL trying to write our own stories. No one is perfect. We all have flaws and we’ve all been burned by the things of this world, the devil…but what I love about God is that through it all, he ALWAYS knows when to show up and show OUT. I would be a total wreck if it weren’t for my God. I wouldn’t be the Stephanie I am today if it weren’t for his grace and mercy. There’s nothing you can do that God won’t forgive you for. He’s your father and he loves you. I don’t know about you, but I can just imagine the love my heavenly father has for me, because my earthly father shows me so much love. There’s nothing I can’t do that my earthly father won’t forgive me of. He tells me all the time “you’ll always be my baby,” and as a married almost 25-year-old woman, that still stands true!

{Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you hope and a future.”}

Like so many other people, there are many things I’m not proud of. There are several decisions that I made based on my flesh rather than praying about it and listening to what God is trying to tell me. It took going through a really hard break up for the Lord to pull me back in, and even then I still didn’t completely rely on the Lord to fix my problems. I’m human so I still struggle with giving God all of my problems, but when I start to feel uneasy or easily angered, I know it’s God tugging at my heart to run into his arms and let him handle it for me.

The other night I was watching “Iyanla, Fix My Life,” with my mother in love and husband and when I tell you I cried my eyes out, I cried my eyes out. I was trying so hard not to do one of those ugly cries (still had to keep it cute in front of my in law lol). It was based off of a man that fathered 34 kids. Right off the bat I looked at the T.V like “34 kids?!!! This man is crazy,” but as I heard his story, as well as other men that were on the show, I began to change my perception. Like so many people, these men endured a lot in their life. No father around, drugs, suicide and so on… and what really tugged at my heart was their emotion and I could just feel their pain. They did what any normal person would do at first…try to burry the hurt. They buried their hurt with sex…. lots of it, and because of that, they now brought so many kids into this world that will have issues themselves. I talked about this in another blog, but this is called a generational curse. They let their situation with their fathers pour into their children’s lives and because of that it will pour into their future grandchildren’s lives. The cycle will continue unless someone breaks the chain. Someone has to pray and ask for forgiveness. We all make mistakes, but we have to STOP trying to fix our problems with things of this world. So you came up from a messed up family…your father wasn’t around and you fought with your mother all the time…stop the generational curses and make a change. Pray for your family and for forgiveness on their behalf.

Ladies we also have to STOP blaming the men and blaming society. Is it wrong that society puts so much pressure on women to close their legs and for men it’s totally fine, YES…but that doesn’t mean go out and open your legs to prove a point. That’s not how it is in the bible and it’s NOT going to make you happy. A man sleeping around isn’t praised in the bible either. A man is supposed to submit unto the Lord. Him sleeping around with all these different women and calling them out of their name is NOT a man of God.

I feel incredibly blessed to have found a man of God at such a young age, one that I gave myself to and ended up marrying. I realize that not every one is going to have the same story. For my ladies that are feeling guilty for giving themselves away…DON’T. We all make mistakes, but the beauty is that we learn from that. The man God has for you will be broken as well, only difference is he used God to repair him.

So whatever it is you’re going through, let God put your pieces back together, don’t try and put them back together yourself.

Love,

Mrs. Luster