Spiritual Attack

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It seems as if the moment I decided to fully give my life to Christ is when things got harder and harder. I lost support from certain people, people started saying “you’re different, you’ve changed,” and people started disappearing. I was so confused at first and even questioned myself at times. I didn’t want to be that girl that shoved Jesus in everyone’s face and thought I was “holier than thou.” I didn’t realize it then, but that was just the devil trying his best to throw me off. He doesn’t want me, or any of us to gain a closer relationship with God. It seemed as if the closer I got to God, the harder the devil attacked. The moment you give your life wholeheartedly to God, THINGS WILL CHANGE. The enemy will do everything in his power to steer you from the path that God has chosen for you. If I could be completely honest, things got hard, like really hard. I wanted to give up. I fought with everything to get the devil off my back and it seemed the harder I fought, the stronger he kept coming.

{The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.} John 10:10

What the enemy seemed to forget is that I am a child of God, I belong to Him and Him only. So even when I hit rock bottom and felt like throwing in the towel, God gave me extra strength to fight and keep on fighting. We’re all going to go through different trials and tribulations in our life, but it’s what strengthens our relationship with God and its’ what strengthens us.

One thing that really bothers me is when people put Christianity above God. What do I mean by that? When people are more focused on the religious aspect instead of forming that relationship with God. I can’t tell you how many statuses I see on social media about “Christians” bashing other Christians. Pointing out someone else’s flaws does NOT make you a better person at the end of the day. Jesus himself didn’t do that, so what gives you a right? I’ve learned a long time ago that every one of us have a story. We’ve all been through hurt, heartbreak, feeling lost, alone and so on. It’s so important for us to stop throwing stones at each other and pointing out each other’s flaws and stand together. Now I’m not saying it’s ok to go around cursing, bashing others, going to strip clubs, etc. and then be like “I’m saved, I’m a Christian,” um no, that’s called being a lukewarm Christian and we can’t afford to be that either. We’re all going to fall short, but as long as we’re REALLY trying and giving our hearts to Christ that’s all that matters.

{I will instruct you and teach you the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on you} Psalm 32:7

This journey I’m on with Christ in such a beautiful one. Whenever I’m feeling broken, lost, or confused, He’s right there beside me. When I cry out to Jesus, he always answers. I’m an imperfect person loving a perfect God, as we all are. I really wanted to encourage someone tonight that may be feeling like they want to give up because they might not be where they want to be financially, they’re single and thought they would be married by a certain age, they’re not making the money they thought they should be making, they lost a loved one, they’re holding on to years of hurt, whatever it is you might be going through just know that Jesus is there with you every step of the way. You’re not alone. Turn off that trash T.V, turn on Christian music, cry out and praise. It’s the best feeling in the world. Let all of that hurt flow out of you and just cry out to the Lord. You’ll feel like a totally new person and like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders. You’ll feel as if you can conquer anything.

I hope I’ve encouraged someone tonight. Know that you’re not alone and you’re loved. ❤


Mrs. Luster

He’s just not that into you

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If you have to question if a guy is into you, let me help you out and tell it to you straight…. he’s NOT. That shouldn’t even be a question because a Man doesn’t play games. He doesn’t say things like “you’re prefect, but right now is not a good time for me,” or, “you’re a great woman, I just can’t commit to you right now.” If the guy you’re seeing is saying any of these things to you…. run in the opposite direction and don’t look back.

When you’re with a Godly man, a man that is pursuing God, there won’t be a question of when or what if. He’s waiting for God to bless him with his Queen and if you’re his Queen, he’s not going to pass that up. I can’t tell you how many times I hear girls wonder if the guy they’re seeing really likes them, or better yet… they don’t know where they stand with him. I’ll tell you where you stand…. NOWHERE. Know your worth ladies and know the difference between dating a boy and a man. You see a boy has no clue what he wants. He’s indecisive and the minute something better comes along (or sometimes anything else at all) he goes for it. He’s like a kid in the candy store. He just sees sugar everywhere! But a man knows that there are different types of sugar. Ones that are way too sugary, or some that have a bittersweet taste. He knows there are certain types of candy that have just the right amount of sugar level. Not too sweet, and no too bitter. He knows that if he tries to grab all of the candy, he’ll just end up with a stomachache or a cavity. He knows he can only chose one, and he’s confident in the one he chooses.


I can just imagine the pressure of dating in our time, especially with social media. But a Godly man is going to be more concerned with his walk with Christ, instead of what the world is up to. Now I’m not saying he’s going be to a total nerd, or someone that is holier than thou, but you’ll definitely know the difference between a man and a boy.

I know, I Know… you’re probably thinking Stephanie you’ve only been with Michael how do you know? Well I let God lead me. There was a point where Michael and I broke up for about a year during our dating period, and I did what any girl with a broken heart would do. I tried to cover up my hurt and go on as many dates as I could (or back then “talk” to whoever would give me attention) I was seeking to fill my broken heart with a man and not with God and let me tell you honey I quickly learned that was NOT going to work. I ended up even more upset than I already was. I compared every guy to Michael and none of them even compared. I was broken and seeking a man to fix my broken heart instead of God. I thank God everyday that he snatched me back into HIS world and not a man’s world.

I dropped every random and started reading the Bible more and praying more. I surrendered my all to God. Does that mean I was perfect? Ha no! I was an 18-year-old girl who was so lost, but I knew for a fact I wasn’t going to be able to heal without my Lord and Savior. I needed HIM, not some random guy that just wanted to sleep with me.

I say all of this to say, ladies if you’re waiting on your prince charming…stop! Surrender your all to the Lord. You must first build that relationship with Him to know how to properly love. To know what True love means. And let me also state that not EVERY guy you meet that checks off your “want” list is going to be the one. Not EVERY Christian guy you meet is the one for you. Don’t think the first Christian guy that comes into your life is your husband. Again, when it’s God’s plan… you won’t have to question it, you’ll know. I wasn’t waiting around for Michael to come back into my life. I filled my time with God and I truly trusted that whatever happened was God’s plan, not mine. So if Michael and I never got back together, I knew my husband was out there. I waited for God to reveal that to me. When Michael came back into my life, I gave him such a hard time. I wanted God to speak directly to my heart. After the first conversation we had in almost a year, I instantly knew he was where my heart had been and where it would always be.

Ladies, surrender your all to the one that loves you unconditionally, God.


Mrs. Luster