Baby Girl’s Nursery

We are SOOOOOO ready to meet our princess. On this incredible journey to parenthood though we’ve learned that everything is all in God’s timing and we need to be patient. (But if she comes now that would totally make our day, just saying lol)

Way before finding out we were pregnant, I pretty much had her room planned out lol! I knew her room would be totally girly and I just love the way it came out!


We had so much help from our loved ones in helping to decorate her room! Hubby and my father in love built her crib, rocking chair, changing table, and hung everything up for us.

My mother in love was the master mind behind the decor and where exactly to place everything.

My mom, sisters, and sister in love helped me organize everything in baby girls room (and my sister in love made this beautiful sign for baby girls room.)


This picture could not have fit more perfectly into her room. She is definitely worth the wait! Although I would never want to go through what I went through, it brought me to her! I love my baby girl soooo much already. She’s going to get annoyed with me because I’m going to shower her with daily kisses. 🙂


Hope y’all liked her room as much as we did! Thanks for all the love & support you all have given us! It’s definitely helped us in the most difficult times.

Love,

Mrs. Luster 

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Our Pregnancy Journey

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As a little girl, I remember dreaming about one day becoming a mother. I wondered what my child would look like, if I would have a son or daughter first, how many children I would have, and whom would I have children with. It was as if I was meant to become a mother because it’s all I’ve ever dreamt of. What I didn’t anticipate was the journey to motherhood. How could something I knew I was destined to become feel so far away, and I felt as if I would never see my dreams come true.

When Michael and I decided to start trying for a baby two years ago we had no clue the journey we were about to embark on. Things were pretty much falling into place for us. We got married, I had my dream job as a T.V news reporter, we had a place to live, we had a beautiful wedding, and we were so happy enjoying our first couple of years of marriage. Then baby fever set in bad. Like REAL bad lol. I wanted a baby instantly pretty much. We talked it out and decided to start trying at the beginning of the year 2015. I had been on birth control for two years, got off of them in May and by June we were pregnant. I thought, “Wow, this is so easy! We got pregnant fast!” The moment I saw those two pink little lines on the pregnancy test I fell in love. I thought about all the dreams and wondering I did as a little girl and the moment was finally here! What made it feel even more amazing was the fact that I was having a baby with my husband, the man I’m so head over heels in love with.

Then things took a totally different turn. We miscarried. I was heartbroken, literally. I couldn’t wrap my head around it. So many thoughts went through my mind. Why did God take our precious baby away? What did we do to deserve this? Haven’t we been good and faithful servants? Why would God place this desire in my heart, just for it to be taken away? I didn’t want to go down that dark road. I refused. I brushed it off and thought God is still good, we’ll just try again. Michael and I fasted and Prayed and decided to try again. When we miscarried again for the second time, I completely lost it. I became so angry with God. I didn’t understand and to make matters worse, the medicine they gave me to help ” pass the baby” made me so sick. It also gave me a weird side effect where I experienced dizzy spells daily for like three months. Not only was I grieving but I felt as if God was punishing me.

I’ll be completely honest instead of drawing closer to God I drew far away. I knew God loved me, I knew he had a plan, but this was just too much for my heart to handle. It seemed like everyone around me was either getting pregnant or having babies. As much as I wanted to be happy for them, my heart just wouldn’t let me. I was slowly slipping into depression and had no idea. I remember one day my mother in law was over at our house and she pulled me aside and said, “I think you’re depressed.” I was so mad at first and quickly tried shutting that down. She told me she recognized what depression looks like because she experienced it when he mother passed away. Days went by and I couldn’t stop thinking about what my mother in law said. Then I finally admitted it I was experiencing depression. I was crushed. How did I get here? What am I doing to myself? I’m a Christian woman. I’m not supposed to experience that. The truth is, I’m human and just because I’m a Christian doesn’t mean I’m not going to go through anything. I’m not exempt from trials and tribulations. The bible tells us we’re going to go through trials and tribulations, Jesus doesn’t promise us a life free of troubles. He does promise to be with us. You see while I was going through my storm, he was there with me all along, just like he was there for peter when the boat was sinking.

Matthew 14:29 “Lord, if it is You,” Peter replied, “command me to come to You on the water.” 29 “Come”, said Jesus. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water, and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the strength of the wind, he was afraid, and beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”…

I was sinking, and just like Peter, I cried out to the Lord to save me, but had no faith in him. I sunk deeper and deeper into my depression that anxiety followed and then panic attacks set in. I was so deep in my thoughts and worries that I let them consume me. I listened to all the doubts in my head that I would never become a mother, I could never give my husband a child, that I’m not a real woman because I couldn’t give my husband a child. All of those thoughts came from the enemy and I knew better than to listen, but sometimes when the storm is so loud and you’re so focused on the storm, you can’t hear Jesus crying out for you. And that’s exactly what happened.

God had to work on me; He needed me to trust him. For an entire year I feared getting pregnant and tried everything possible to avoid getting pregnant. We went to a fertility clinic just to be told, “we couldn’t find anything wrong, and you’re perfectly healthy!” On one end I was extremely relived, but on the other hand I wanted them to find something to justify why I went through this horrible thing called “miscarriage,” twice. When I didn’t get the answers I was looking for I became so obsessed with trying to find a reason. I knew God was good, but I didn’t understand this part of my life. I could have lost my mind, but God wasn’t about to allow that to happen. I’m his child and He loves me.

After avoiding getting pregnant for a year, I remember Michael asking me, “Babe when are we going to try this again?” I stayed quiet; I didn’t know what to tell him. I wanted so badly to give my husband a child but I couldn’t bare the thought of loosing another child. I remember sharing my fears with my hubby and he did what a God-fearing husband should. He told me that I couldn’t hide from this forever, that eventually I would have to face my fears. He was right. I had been running from this for an entire year, taking everything into my own hands, and leaving God completely out. I had to make a decision, was I going to let the enemy take over my life or was I finally going to give this to God. I asked myself what’s the worse that could happen? Another miscarriage? Well, had been there done that. And guess what, God will be there with me again. I had to trust him completely with my body and future. When hubby and I decided to try again I truly was at peace. I gave it to God and said “God whatever happens, you’re in control, but whatever happens please give me strength.”

A month later we found out were pregnant after initially trying again and I was excited but I could tell I was reserved. I tried not to get overly happy, but then again I wanted to trust God. Hubby and I went over to my in-laws to pray with my father in law and tell them the great news. We then told my family as well so that we could all be on one accord and in prayer. I was scared but I knew with an army behind us praying, the Lord was going to hear our cry.

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Fast forward 9 months later and we are patiently awaiting the arrival of our baby girl. This journey has not been easy. There have been times where I’ve doubted and cried out the Lord. Each time I made it through another week of pregnancy I said to myself “almost there, just a little more!” But what I’ve learned is that if you truly give it to God, He WILL answer your prayers and get you through whatever fear you have. The bible tells us that fear is not a spirit of the Lord, but of the enemy. So I knew where my fear was coming from and I had to let it go and trust in God no matter what the outcome was. I’m glad I stopped trying to figure it out on my own and leaned on God to get me through.

For all my mommas out there struggling to get pregnant or have experienced loss, trust in the Lord. I know it seems so hard to do when all you want is to become a mother, but he has given you that desire. Whether he decides to bless you with a child in your womb, or through adoption, trust in Him always. His plans are good.

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Feeling my baby girl move around in my stomach is a reminder of how good the Lord is and how faithful He is. I never would have made it this far without him. I still would have been trying to handle this on my own. My daughter will know just how much she’s loved and how much we prayed for her. When she’s old enough to understand, I plan on telling her all about our struggles to finally have her and hold her. She will love the Lord and know Him. To my baby girl Aria, Mommy loves you so much and I’d go through this journey a thousand times just to have you.

I pray for all of you mommas out there dealing with struggles of having a baby. I too was there and one day you’ll be saying the same while holding your precious baby in your arms.

Love,

Mrs. Luster

 

#Goals: Dating With Purpose

As we continue our series, this week we are discussing dating with a purpose! Let’s face it, we all date because we want to find our true love and get married one day. Even if you admit it or not. That’s what we were created for! The Lord says it’s not good for man to be alone so he made a woman. He made the woman from a man’s rib! So we’re either trying to find our rib, or be someones rib. Hubby and I discuss what we think dating with a purpose is all about!

 

Hey Everyone!

Hubby and I are starting a new series called “#Goals.” We are super excited to be sharing our thoughts together on what we think dating should be all about. Check out our intro video and don’t forget to subscribe to know when we post! 🙂

Love,

Mrs.Luster

When Anxiety Attacks

 

Hi Everyone!

I wanted to update everyone on what I’ve been dealing with and after talking with several different people (strangers, family members, and friends) I realized I wasn’t alone on this journey of anxiety and panic. It’s something that a lot of people deal with (yes even Christians) and yet not a lot of people talk about. It’s been super rough, but with God anything is possible.

Let’s face it we all have anxiety! Some more than others, but we all experience some level of anxiety. It’s natural, but what isn’t natural is constantly worrying, or like I did…push my feelings so far back that it was let out in a nasty and vicious way. First the panic attacks happened, and then depression set in because I couldn’t get “rid” of the anxiety and panic attacks which led to a vicious cycle. I’m happy to say that I have made it to the other side and you can too! Don’t let your circumstances or anyone else tell you that you can’t take your life back! The enemy wants to see you fail so badly, and he definitely wanted to see me fail. With time and lots of prayer, I have overcome fear! Does that mean fear won’t try to come back? No not at all, I’d be silly to say that. But when fear does try and come back, the key is to not entertain it. We all go through difficult things in our life, but God is always in control.

I pray this video helps and encourages someone out there that may be feeling hopeless. Don’t be afraid to get professional help, pray, but most importantly don’t be afraid of the enemy!

Love,

Mrs. Luster

Being Patient in an Impatient World

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There are different seasons in your life that you will experience. You’ll have a season of love and happiness, you’ll have a season full of heartbreaks and loneliness, you’ll have a season where you feel like everything is working out in your favor, and you’ll have seasons where you feel like everyone is out to get you. I’ve experienced every one of these seasons, yes, including a broken heart and loneliness. I remember finding myself in the season of being single, broken hearted, and feeling like my world was crashing down. What if I told you that was one of my best seasons of all? What if I told you I’m so thankful for that season and I wouldn’t change that season of my life even if I could? That season made me the woman I am today. You might be thinking, girl you’re crazy! I’m single now and it sucks being alone. Well let me just tell you this, you’re never alone. God is always with you and he’s taking you through this season for a reason.

 

The bible tells us in Psalm 34:18, “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”

 

So on the days where you feel like you’re never going to find the one, or you just can’t see another engagement picture, or happy couple picture, or anything that reminds you of your season just know that God has heard your prayers, but have you listened to Him? He has ordered your steps to Him and yet you pull further and further away. You spend time thinking about Mr. or Mrs. Right that you start getting so anxious to find him or her and then before you know it, you find yourself thinking every person you meet is the one, only to realize that’s just your flesh talking. You have fed your flesh and then before you know it you find yourself single again and this time with a broken heart. Before you can be anyone’s wife or husband, you first have to learn to submit to your creator. How can you serve your spouse if you can’t even serve the one who gave you life?

 

Job 22: 21 “Submit to God and be at peace with him; in this way prosperity will come to you. Accept instruction from his mouth and lay up his words in your heart.

 

My husband and I have recently gone through a rough time with our miscarriages. A family member suggested I read the story of Job. Let me just tell you how faithful this man was. Here is a man that had it all. The house, the wife, the kids, you name it he had it. The enemy as always, tries to kill, steal, and destroy. Satan goes to God and asks if he can test Job’s faith. God allows him to do so as long as he does not kill Job. So the enemy takes everything Job loved, He takes his house, his crops, and even his kids. What’s the first thing Job does? He praises God. The enemy wanted a different reaction and decided that wasn’t enough so the enemy went further and inflicted sickness on him. Now job finds himself completely alone, broken hearted and now super sick. Even through all of the pain and suffering Job knew he served a faithful God and not once did he curse God. He may not have understood why he was going through what he was going through, but not once did he curse God for all that he went through. Instead he cried out to God. He called on God for answers and for healing. So many people try to distract their mind from the pain and they run away from God instead of towards God. We try to fill our time with trash T.V, with trash music, and we run to people for advice (which is okay, but don’t run to people first before you have brought it to God).

 

Get out of that random person’s bed; stop playing house, stop feeding your flesh and start feeding your spirit. If so many of us picked up our bibles every time we face different situations and learn to trust God with all of our heart, the world would be a much better place and you would be a much better you. The hardest part is being patient. So many times I hear people say, “I’ve been praying for this situation and God has not answered my prayers!” God is going to answer your prayers on His timing, not yours. Right now he wants you to go through this season to grow with him. By no means am I saying it’s going to be easy because it’s not. These past few months I’ve had to remind myself this every day. I’ve been praying for the Lord to help me grow with him and grow in ministry and instead of him giving me just that, he’s put me through many tests. It’s as if the Lord is saying, “Okay Stephanie, you say you trust me, you say you’re following me, well let’s see how you do when your faith is shaken.” It’s so easy to trust God when everything is going right, but let me tell you how hard it is when everything is going wrong. I’m learning and growing through these trials and tribulations, and although I don’t understand them, I will praise Him through the storm.

 

Whatever you’re going through won’t last forever, so trust and believe in Him. Your broken heart, your loneliness, your sickness, your financial problems, your relationship problems, and whatever else you may be going through won’t last long. God has your back, so let him lead you as you go through these hard times.

 

Love,

Mrs. Luster

 

All in His timing

Hey Guys!

I apologize that it’s been a while, but we’ve been dealing with our second miscarriage. The bible tells us in Proverbs 3:5, to trust the LORD with all of your heart and to lean not on your own understanding. Although we may not understand, we know what kind of God we serve and we know that all things work together for the greater good. This road has not been an easy one, but we’re reaming faithful to God.

We wanted to share our struggles in hopes of encouraging someone that may be going through the same, or going through any trials and tribulations in general. The bible also tells us in the book of James that we will face many trials of many kinds, but to rejoice in the mist of a storm because we know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. We’re not letting this get us down, we’re pushing through and fighting the enemy with God on our side.

Stay encouraged friends, God is on your side!

Love,

The Luster’s